odd week so far.....

MONDAY

  loaded up(water bottles and such), picked up(Jacob), and headed up(actually down...) to somethinerother reservoir.south of Ft. Wayne. biked around the camp grounds and picked out the best sites. mmmm...so far a perfect day....biked to the marina....wishful thinking with houseboats....biked back to the beach...scraped my already jinxed foot...tied at that chicken game while swimming...ate some snacks while reading.....sat in the sun while reading...eat ice cream cone before leaving...playing that stupid alphabet game on the way home.

TUESDAY

woke up at 6:35am.got dressed...stumbled into car...half hour later i'm sitting in a dentist chair in Ft. Wayne. blood pressure thing on the arm and finger. a nurse sticks me with a needle--and doesn't remove it. addrenaline rush coming real fast. hurry up lady. finally unconscience. memory all blurry. going in and out. stop at gas station-no V8 splash...in porch want bed not couch!...finally in bed...starting to gag. hurry up with the bucket already!...gross...bloody gauzzzzzzzzzzzzze.

WEDNESDAY

terrible night. wake up at 5:45am. jo leaving for work...feel mesirable...go to bathroom take some pills, spook Dad...get ice. go back to bed...zzzzzzz.....wake up..what hour??.....eat breakfast-tigermilk...take pills before left alone in an empty house. finish book. watch Doctor Who. read couple chapters of another book...get up and swish some salt water...watch While You Were Sleeping...family finally gets back. finally some lunch....at like 3:30pm.

look in the mirror...what do i see?

a deformed Libby.

Happy August 12th.

today i got a present from someone and i certainly wasn't expecting it. wow. -i thought. she really does love me. that dear dear person truely cares and loves me. (maybe-just maybe she knows just how much i've tried to help her, and she's thanking me for it.) and for those ever short moments, i was on top of the world.

 and nothing could take me off....

.......well, maybe except when someone is presented a noodle.......